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Math Marvels: Adding Natural Numbers Made Easy!
Before we start solving some problems, click on the video below: Problem 1: Understanding Carryover in Addition of Natural Numbers Introduction: Addition is a fundamental mathematical operation that helps us combine numbers and find their total value. However, when adding larger numbers, a concept called ācarryoverā can pose challenges for learners. Problem: Consider the addition problem: 589 +ā¦

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WHAT jesus xx chromosome article??????????????
I had to go searching for the exact one but it's this. Basically the author (Georgia Day) argues that 1. We know Jesus had a penis (he's circumcised) and that 2. there's no way Jesus could have XY chromosomes since Mary is his only biological human parent. So Jesus is intersex according to this logic
#vee's asks#i'm not sure if i agree or disagree#since I don't really believe in christian theology/miraculous conception#but its an interesting thought exercise that's asking people to consider what if jesus was not a cis man#there's an additional argument in Christianity-queering circles that Jesus is inherently queer#because he did not adhere to the marriage customs of his time period and culture#learned a lot by taking a class simply called 'Jesus' as an elective
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Ghilan'nain should have been huge.
#i think she should have MORE legs#like 27 additional pairs of arms that skitter about like an abstract painting#she should make your skin crawl#all her arms should be casting a different spell#multitasking queen#if she was in a side scroller bullet hell video game#she'd obliterate you in the first 5 seconds over and over until you learn the pattern#ghilan'nain#dragon age the veilguard#datv spoilers#datv artbook#datv concept art
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i hate this app and its weird aggro guilt
#like i get that they're leaning into the meme#but i did not actually sign up to the language learning app to be threatened and shamed#i signed up to learn languages? preferably from actual speakers and not ai?#duolingo#ādid i learn enough to be safe from duoā please shut up and expand your Arabic course thanks#no fun allowed etc etc#but i just. it is way less funny when the APP is like āhaha it's funny how duolingo is passive aggressive and weirdā#i do not care about your mascot. i do not care about your cute little animations. i do not care about your colourful characters.#please just give me expanded language sets and maybe a non-paid feature that explains grammar concepts#the only good addition duolingo has made in the past few years has been adding the alphabet section for other orthographies#ALSO LIKE. WHILE I'M RANTING. EXPLAIN TO ME WHY OUT OF THE LANGUAGES I'M LEARNING THE TWO WITH THE LEAST CONTENT ARE ARABIC AND HINDI#THOSE ARE TWO OF THE TOP-TEN MOST SPOKEN LANGUAGES IN THE WORLD. DO NOT TELL ME YOU CAN'T EXPAND THOSE COURSES.
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The problem with dissection/the process of "understanding" in general is that going too far in abstracting something defeats the initial purpose of abstracting it and brings you back to the beginning which is the reality you were abstracting from and the thing is that the āÆļø is a visual translation of the fact that the furthest human thought can go without losing meaning in the process of "meaning making" is to draw dichotomy which is very similar to the fact of all or nothing data bridges that numerous sensory inputs have to trigger in a certain threshold of "difference" in order to trigger an action potential that conducts one sensation to another to create the physical pattern of a person making a "meaning" of something and while a computer trying to replicate that process would use 1s and zeroes because that was the most simplified/abstracted visual symbol of difference a person closer to our point in time could come up with, someone millenia ago observing the same process of the mind and meaning making abstracted it to the point of the dark é° and the light é½ when the sun rises over the hill. Imagination is a physical process where patterns initially generated by simple chain reactions between sensory stimuli and behavioral responses that alter future sensory stimuli being reconnected and combined to create distinct, new patterns that then become a part of that concrete sensory data and perpetuate variation to a point where initial stimulus loses relevance. Everything created by humans can be understood by other humans because the functionality of our understanding has largely remained consistent over a long period of time, the variations in our attachments between symbols and internal stimuli occur at a much faster rate than variations in the physical makeup of our understanding process. The probability of that understanding, however, will be affected by variations at different levels of the process. Variety in stimulus/lived experiences/input data can cause difference in understanding, attachment of different external behavioral responses to distinct internal processes can cause difference in understanding and the pathway of understanding connecting similar input data of the senses to similar output data of actions can be variable while producing the same outwardly visible results. Given such disparate probabilities, isn't it really a miracle then when two human beings are able to understand one another?
#when asking whether or not humans are inherently good or evil at a certain point the answer turns into a bell chart. '#concepts have an agreed meaning that has such variability between meaning making processes that the frequency of humans being catagorized as#good and the frequency of humans being catagorized as evil will run to a standardized bell curve average of āmoralityā#unless additional parameters are set on the relationship of the words to non solely human-oriented meanings such as observable actions/#phenomenons.#personal#as dichotomies transition through contexts all things are defined by their relationship to other things in repeating patterns#like with chemicals and such.#i love that science and art are both about patterns. that understanding things humans make is easier when you understand human understanding#processes are like pretty normal and simple and get to learn about the variation of new patterns that can grow/be birthed from that.#super gorgeous being a human is really cute and lovely and such actually <33
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ok sorry i just really loved the thought of n arguing with this little thing i wanted to draw it
Do you ever think about how almost all of Nās PokĆ©mon throughout the first games were one offs he released after he battled you, how he cared about them all deeply enough that he thought it would be selfish to have them battle more than necessary. And do you ever think about how this is the case with all his PokĆ©mon EXCEPT his Klinklang in the final battle at the league, where the second to last battle he had a Klink and this Klinklang is very likely that same PokĆ©mon? Do you think this was a visual representation of his mindset wavering from a fixed point? How that Klink refused to leave him right away and he couldnāt bring himself to force them to leave because his mind is in so many different directions? He can keep them around just a little longer until he becomes champion, it wonāt be long, he can bend things some so long as he doesnāt fully stray from his pathā¦right?
Or is that just me am I the only one willing to be insane about Klinklang of all PokƩmon
#pokemon#clai's art#i love when things are super serious and then suddenly arent. its my favorite bit#BUT ALSO. i come back with more klink thoughts#you mentioned how it would have been nice for the pokemon that signified n's turning point to be a friendship evo#and like yeah i think it would have been nice for him to have one i even have my own post on the matter#but tbh. klink is THE perfect one to represent it. like its driving me up a wall. i think it might fit n more than zorua does#the thing with n is he is horrifically bad at friendships. he pushes all his pokemon away by releasing them#he keeps saying he wants to be friends with the protag all throughout bw1 but doesnt give them a way to contact him when he leaves#he's gone for Two Years without reconnecting#my point being. a friendship evo actually wouldnt do him any good during bw1. he's fresh out of isolation he hasn't learned to process it#what n does do? he processes the world through formulas. makes sense of everything around him with numbers#klink is a pokemon that cannot function unless its in a pair. it has the abilities plus and minus which only activate when--#--another pokemon with those abilities. all rooted in very basic scientific terms. can't make a gear turn without a second one#maria also points out its a ferris wheel reference. ''The circular motion... The mechanics... [...]collections of elegant formulas''#what i'm saying is n needed that concept of togetherness explained in a way He understood#n thinks linearly. there has to be one solution to everything. it has to be neatly explained in a formula#friendships are complex and theres no Correct way to make and be friends#he just needed a kickstart idea presented in familiar terms. klink is exactly that#in addition like klink being an objectmon and n seen as inhuman? literally perfect. n connecting with something that might on the surface--#--look unfeeling and cold. but klink is all about connections and so is n#i hope that makes sense. its very late i might be rambling too much VJEVDJEVJED#sorry for putting a serious analysis in the tags of a Funny Comic. i am severely ill about black and white you must understand
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Like, I would go for the "just read a bunch of stuff" route as I've done for the other languages I've learnt, but the main issue is that this language doesn't have a "consistent" pronunciation, which means that I would need to both read and listen to what I'm reading if I want to learn how to actually read
#+ the usual additional difficulty of having to find things to read but that's like. Whatever#my post#I'm not going to language lessons for the other language I've been learning this past year and a half atm#But I think I am now roughly a B1 level and I can understand a little of the other languages of the same family#I mean. I can read and understand a good 80% of almost anything I get my hands on#+ I think I know most of the relevant grammar concepts#Which means the learning curve now is all about immersion/using the language#(Btw I can understand when they're singing too!! Which I think is a very good sign <3)#anyway I could focus on a different language I think
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yeah, of the killer is preatty good. kinda walking away from 1 similar to how i felt with 0, overall very positive on it and keen to dig into it more
#i can only handle oh so many episodic releases in one go though. oh well. i do like the concept art gallery as an addition#i think i'm either not quite in the mood for this type of game at the moment or just a little poor at understand the questions the game#wants me to ask. feeling like i wasn't really on the same page as morgan w/ this ep but those are pretty minor in the grand scheme of it#as a whole work. well. as a whole work in one episode#i'm very curious to see more of serra and morgan. especially knowing that david kinda knows what morgan is capable of#and what his 'goal' might've been to have serra learn from her
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How I learned to write smarter, not harder
(aka, how to write when you're hella ADHD lol)
A reader commented on my current long fic asking how I write so well. I replied with an essay of my honestly pretty non-standard writing advice (that they probably didn't actually want lol) Now I'm gonna share it with you guys and hopefully there's a few of you out there who will benefit from my past mistakes and find some useful advice in here. XD Since I started doing this stuff, which are all pretty easy changes to absorb into your process if you want to try them, I now almost never get writer's block.
The text of the original reply is indented, and I've added some additional commentary to expand upon and clarify some of the concepts.
As for writing well, I usually attribute it to the fact that I spent roughly four years in my late teens/early 20s writing text roleplay with a friend for hours every single day. Aside from the constant practice that provided, having a live audience immediately reacting to everything I wrote made me think a lot about how to make as many sentences as possible have maximum impact so that I could get that kind of fun reaction. (Which is another reason why comments like yours are so valuable to fanfic writers! <3) The other factors that have improved my writing are thus: 1. Writing nonlinearly. I used to write a whole story in order, from the first sentence onward. If there was a part I was excited to write, I slogged through everything to get there, thinking that it would be my reward once I finished everything that led up to that. It never worked. XD It was miserable. By the time I got to the part I wanted to write, I had beaten the scene to death in my head imagining all the ways I could write it, and it a) no longer interested me and b) could not live up to my expectations because I couldn't remember all my ideas I'd had for writing it. The scene came out mediocre and so did everything leading up to it. Since then, I learned through working on VN writing (I co-own a game studio and we have some visual novels that I write for) that I don't have to write linearly. If I'm inspired to write a scene, I just write it immediately. It usually comes out pretty good even in a first draft! But then I also have it for if I get more ideas for that scene later, and I can just edit them in. The scenes come out MUCH stronger because of this. And you know what else I discovered? Those scenes I slogged through before weren't scenes I had no inspiration for, I just didn't have any inspiration for them in that moment! I can't tell you how many times there was a scene I had no interest in writing, and then a week later I'd get struck by the perfect inspiration for it! Those are scenes I would have done a very mediocre job on, and now they can be some of the most powerful scenes because I gave them time to marinate. Inspiration isn't always linear, so writing doesn't have to be either!
Some people are the type that joyfully write linearly. I have a friend like this--she picks up the characters and just continues playing out the next scene. Her story progresses through the entire day-by-day lives of the characters; it never timeskips more than a few hours. She started writing and posting just eight months ago, she's about an eighth of the way through her planned fic timeline, and the content she has so far posted to AO3 for it is already 450,000 words long. But most of us are normal humans. We're not, for the most part, wired to create linearly. We consume linearly, we experience linearly, so we assume we must also create linearly. But actually, a lot of us really suffer from trying to force ourselves to create this way, and we might not even realize it. If you're the kind of person who thinks you need to carrot-on-a-stick yourself into writing by saving the fun part for when you finally write everything that happens before it: Stop. You're probably not a linear writer. You're making yourself suffer for no reason and your writing is probably suffering for it. At least give nonlinear writing a try before you assume you can't write if you're not baiting or forcing yourself into it!! Remember: Writing is fun. You do this because it's fun, because it's your hobby. If you're miserable 80% of the time you're doing it, you're probably doing it wrong!
2. Rereading my own work. I used to hate reading my own work. I wouldn't even edit it usually. I would write it and slap it online and try not to look at it again. XD Writing nonlinearly forced me to start rereading because I needed to make sure scenes connected together naturally and it also made it easier to get into the headspace of the story to keep writing and fill in the blanks and get new inspiration. Doing this built the editing process into my writing process--I would read a scene to get back in the headspace, dislike what I had written, and just clean it up on the fly. I still never ever sit down to 'edit' my work. I just reread it to prep for writing and it ends up editing itself. Many many scenes in this fic I have read probably a dozen times or more! (And now, I can actually reread my own work for enjoyment!) Another thing I found from doing this that it became easy to see patterns and themes in my work and strengthen them. Foreshadowing became easy. Setting up for jokes or plot points became easy. I didn't have to plan out my story in advance or write an outline, because the scenes themselves because a sort of living outline on their own. (Yes, despite all the foreshadowing and recurring thematic elements and secret hidden meanings sprinkled throughout this story, it actually never had an outline or a plan for any of that. It's all a natural byproduct of writing nonlinearly and rereading.)
Unpopular writing opinion time: You don't need to make a detailed outline.
Some people thrive on having an outline and planning out every detail before they sit down to write. But I know for a lot of us, we don't know how to write an outline or how to use it once we've written it. The idea of making one is daunting, and the advice that it's the only way to write or beat writer's block is demoralizing. So let me explain how I approach "outlining" which isn't really outlining at all.
I write in a Notion table, where every scene is a separate table entry and the scene is written in the page inside that entry. I do this because it makes writing nonlinearly VASTLY more intuitive and straightforward than writing in a single document. (If you're familiar with Notion, this probably makes perfect sense to you. If you're not, imagine something a little like a more contained Google Sheets, but every row has a title cell that opens into a unique Google Doc when you click on it. And it's not as slow and clunky as the Google suite lol) (Edit from the future: I answered an ask with more explanation on how I use Notion for non-linear writing here.) When I sit down to begin a new fic idea, I make a quick entry in the table for every scene I already know I'll want or need, with the entries titled with a couple words or a sentence that describes what will be in that scene so I'll remember it later. Basically, it's the most absolute bare-bones skeleton of what I vaguely know will probably happen in the story.
Then I start writing, wherever I want in the list. As I write, ideas for new scenes and new connections and themes will emerge over time, and I'll just slot them in between the original entries wherever they naturally fit, rearranging as necessary, so that I won't forget about them later when I'm ready to write them. As an example, my current long fic started with a list of roughly 35 scenes that I knew I wanted or needed, for a fic that will probably be around 100k words (which I didn't know at the time haha). As of this writing, it has expanded to 129 scenes. And since I write them directly in the page entries for the table, the fic is actually its own outline, without any additional effort on my part. As I said in the comment reply--a living outline!
This also made it easier to let go of the notion that I had to write something exactly right the first time. (People always say you should do this, but how many of us do? It's harder than it sounds! I didn't want to commit to editing later! I didn't want to reread my work! XD) I know I'm going to edit it naturally anyway, so I can feel okay giving myself permission to just write it approximately right and I can fix it later. And what I found from that was that sometimes what I believed was kind of meh when I wrote it was actually totally fine when I read it later! Sometimes the internal critic is actually wrong. 3. Marinating in the headspace of the story. For the first two months I worked on [fic], I did not consume any media other than [fandom the fic is in]. I didn't watch, read, or play anything else. Not even mobile games. (And there wasn't really much fan content for [fandom] to consume either. Still isn't, really. XD) This basically forced me to treat writing my story as my only source of entertainment, and kept me from getting distracted or inspired to write other ideas and abandon this one.
As an aside, I don't think this is a necessary step for writing, but if you really want to be productive in a short burst, I do highly recommend going on a media consumption hiatus. Not forever, obviously! Consuming media is a valuable tool for new inspiration, and reading other's work (both good and bad, as long as you think critically to identify the differences!) is an invaluable resource for improving your writing.
When I write, I usually lay down, close my eyes, and play the scene I'm interested in writing in my head. I even take a ten-minute nap now and then during this process. (I find being in a state of partial drowsiness, but not outright sleepiness, makes writing easier and better. Sleep helps the brain process and make connections!) Then I roll over to the laptop next to me and type up whatever I felt like worked for the scene. This may mean I write half a sentence at a time between intervals of closed-eye-time XD
People always say if you're stuck, you need to outline.
What they actually mean by that (whether they realize it or not) is that if you're stuck, you need to brainstorm. You need to marinate. You don't need to plan what you're doing, you just need to give yourself time to think about it!
What's another framing for brainstorming for your fic? Fantasizing about it! Planning is work, but fantasizing isn't.
You're already fantasizing about it, right? That's why you're writing it. Just direct that effort toward the scenes you're trying to write next! Close your eyes, lay back, and fantasize what the characters do and how they react.
And then quickly note down your inspirations so you don't forget, haha.
And if a scene is so boring to you that even fantasizing about it sucks--it's probably a bad scene.
If it's boring to write, it's going to be boring to read. Ask yourself why you wanted that scene. Is it even necessary? Can you cut it? Can you replace it with a different scene that serves the same purpose but approaches the problem from a different angle? If you can't remove the troublesome scene, what can you change about it that would make it interesting or exciting for you to write?
And I can't write sitting up to save my damn life. It's like my brain just stops working if I have to sit in a chair and stare at a computer screen. I need to be able to lie down, even if I don't use it! Talking walks and swinging in a hammock are also fantastic places to get scene ideas worked out, because the rhythmic motion also helps our brain process. It's just a little harder to work on a laptop in those scenarios. XD
In conclusion: Writing nonlinearly is an amazing tool for kicking writer's block to the curb. There's almost always some scene you'll want to write. If there isn't, you need to re-read or marinate.
Or you need to use the bathroom, eat something, or sleep. XD Seriously, if you're that stuck, assess your current physical condition. You might just be unable to focus because you're uncomfortable and you haven't realized it yet.
Anyway! I hope that was helpful, or at least interesting! XD Sorry again for the text wall. (I think this is the longest comment reply I've ever written!)
And same to you guys on tumblr--I hope this was helpful or at least interesting. XD Reblogs appreciated if so! (Maybe it'll help someone else!)
#creative writing#writers block#writblr#writers on tumblr#writing#writers and poets#writerscommunity#fanfic writing#writeblr#writing advice
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I came out to my dad as bisexual at 14 and I was PANICKED because I had a crush on a guy in my Boy Scout troop and thought I was Going To Hell Forever and he was so kind and understanding of my distress, but he had NO idea what bisexuality was. He just said āyeah but you like girls too? This is normal. Everyone is like this.ā And I love my dad and trust him with my life to this day and the idea that the concept of bisexuality had not occurred to him had not occurred to me so I put it off.
By 16 though I had a crush on like THREE boys. Three entire boys in my Boy Scout troop. I felt like my sin was slowly advancing, until like an untreated cancer it had become metastatic. I remember bawling my Lāil limp-wristed sissy eyes out in his big rumbly truck on the way home from a scout meeting and him telling me that it was OK, that he still loved me if I was gay, but that he knew I wasnāt gay because I still had crushes on women and that meant I was straight. I didnāt quite know how to explain that those felt *~*different*~* and that I felt like I was losing a fight to evil inside me but I again felt comforted by his reassurances and his genuine fatherly love.
At 18 I was like āhey Iām realizing all my friends are going on missions. I donāt wanna do that. Idk how to say that and I donāt have a āgood enoughā reason to not wanna go.ā So I just put it off. Again, my parents were extremely supportive of the information I gave them (I blamed it on perpetually forgetting to start the paperwork.) and one day my mom texted me that she had done the paperwork for me! And that all I needed was to get a physical! So I did that (it was awkward af tbh, my hernia check was done by a trainee doctor and she spent like 3 minutes fishing around my inguinal canals before her attending rescued me) and was sent to Mexico City where I learned that in addition to dipshit himbos with strong hands and scruffy guys with artistic hearts I was REALLY into chubby Latin men with strong personalities who bullied me a little when I lived in Mexico.
I remember my first companion got annoyed with me during an argument and said we were just gonna wrestle and whoever won the wrestling match won the argument (I stg I am dead serious this happened.) I was likeā¦SWEATING when he tore off his tie and threw his white button-down shirt onto the ground (I won btw, donāt ask me how).
I remember one of my companions with this really intense, almost manic energy telling me that he was gonna make sure I was safe in a new area I didnāt know very well. He cooked breakfast for me and weād go shopping together on P-Days and in the mornings before breakfast heād jog around and do pull-ups with his shirt off and Iād do anything but look at him because my face would break out in a sweat so intense heād think I was crying and come over to see if I was OK and somehow make it worse. He let me play D&D with myself in the evenings even though it was against mission rules because he knew how lonely and stressed I was.
I remember one of my companions was a big chubby man with a loud voice and a great sense of humor. He was kind and direct when addressing conflicts with me, and always bragged about how he knew the secrets of womenās minds and it felt like he really did since it almost always boiled down to āTreat Them Like People and Love Them a Lot. Donāt Stop Being A Person For Them. Also Eat Them Out Sloppy Style.ā Our P-Day activities sometimes felt like dates, and it seemed like he was more attentive to my emotional state than I was since he was always the first to suggest we slow down our Divinely Mandated, God-Ordained, Super Sacred Work and Wonder to get a snack or check out a Pawn Shop (I love Pawn Shops).
I remember another companion who asked me to bully him every time he did something against his goal of losing weight. It was like he gave me Carte Blanche to take out my crush on him by being a nuisance and I LOVED that. I remember having a breakdown one day after weād spent the afternoon frantically cleaning our disgusting-barely-habitable mission house to make it look less vile that it was (not our fault imo?) and I started bawling and he pulled me into a hug and he smelled good and he told me he knew it wasnāt just the house and that I was mad at him for being a Huge Dickhead for about a week (true) and that he would work on it. (Heās also a huge chaser but thatās a separate thing.)
I remember one of my companions waking up early (and our schedule is already built for sleep deprivation) to make me a ābirthday cakeā from knock-off Nutella and bread. He used matches for candles and woke me up, lit the ācandles,ā pulled them out, then smashed it in my face and took a bunch of pictures while I was still madrugada and disoriented as fuck. He had the same sense of humor as one of my HS crushes and I could push his buttons pretty easily which was so fun.
I came home from my mission and started back at BYU where I became actively and aggressively suicidal. I had a stalker the year I moved up there and my dadās solution to that was to get me a gun. I know he wouldnāt have bought me a gun if he could have read my mind, but I had a loaded pistol under my bed during a trifecta faith/sexuality/gender crisis and that was not helpful. I remember that the day I decided to kill myself I figured Iād call the BYU CAPS and see if I could get into therapy because it felt like what I was āsupposed to doā so I could check my suicide boxes. My therapist was the guy whoād helped me pick a major the year before and was this drop-dead gorgeous Hawaiian man who cried when I told him how Iād been feeling.
A few weeks into therapy I met another stunning man with soft eyes and a scruffy illegal-at-BYU beard he kept pushing his luck with. He was funny, kind, patient, married, and wouldnāt give me the time of day if he knew I was crushing on him. We were in my history of psych class, which was inarguably the worst psych class I have ever had, and we studied together for every assignment and test and I realized that my feelings for him and for all the men Iād already mentioned were in direct conflict with my faith and relationship with God. My already agonizing spiritual conflict became even more wretched and as a result of this plus some other tightly-packed experiences with Mormonisms bullshit, I left the church.
After leaving the church I decided to move back to AZ and transfer to ASU. My mom helped me get a dog since I think it had started to dawn on my family that my mental health was barely getting me through the day, and she knew that we both loved dogs. Madi made my last year at BYU livable while I got my shit together and transferred. In that last year, I went on a date with quite possibly the only semi-openly-out trans person on BYU campus. It was not a great date imo, I was not doing well, but the person I spoke with was fun and fascinating and talked to me about Gender Dysphoria and it really cemented my need to go. To leave and never come back to that fucking school.
I started at ASU a month after my last semester at BYU and within a very short time frame it felt like I was coming back together, like a puzzle magically putting itself together in an environment that wasnāt slowly draining that puzzleās will to live.
On the 4th of July, the year I started at ASU, I saw a transition timeline photo of a gorgeous happy beautiful happy radiant happy woman and her former Mormon missionary self and I realized the light that was on in her eyes was the light that was off in mine. I looked into transitioning for 3 days, sleeping about 10 hours total during that time. I started talking to other trans people on Reddit (one of whom is now my beautiful fiancĆ©e @cintailed) and after about a month of making preparations to be disowned and kicked out, something I was not sure would happen but was ready to go through to Turn On The Lights, I came out to my family and it was amazing. I started HRT a month after that. I secretly dated some dorky guys for about a year while I applied to grad schools. I got into a great grad school for me and my needs. I got FFS. I did my trainings and classes. Me and my fiancĆ©e moved in together after some LDR shenanigans. Weāve lived together now for 4 years of basically marital bliss. We have a cat named Grandmother Esmeralda Weatherwax who bites the hell out of my feet about three times a day. My bi-cycle continues to be part of my life but now itās not as scary. Baby gays in my life have started to look to me for advice. Idk how this all happened so fast. When the years, months, weeks, days, and hours seems to crawl by so slowly now they are rushing past me so fast itās almost bewildering. Whereas before I felt like I was living on borrowed time, past my āexpiration date,ā now it feels like I can Fucking Breathe. Iām training myself to slow down now and it feels worth it to Live In The Moment.
Idk why I wrote this. Idk why these thoughts only seem to come up on Sundays when Iām supposed to be writing my dissertation. Idk why Iām crying rn or why I feel so happy. Iām gonna post this shit then get on with my dissertation I guess. Read more Terry Pratchett and give yourselves the time you need. Get a pet. Talk to someone. Re-examine the events that brought you here. Be gayer. Love yāall š
#tgirl swag#worm#mormon#lds church#church of jesus christ of latter day saints#boy scouts#Mormon mission#Mormon missionary#elder#the book of mormon#bisexual#transgender#trans stuff#trans pride#lgbt pride#bi pride#mental health#BYU#pets#my cat#cat#dumb cat#granny weatherwax#terry pratchett
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so my issue, now that I have finally come to pinpoint it: mental stimulation without clarity
#ages and ages and ages trying to find the words that fit what it is that I'm feeling#it's not that I'm lacking in interesting things to read or do. indeed i've been learning new things near constantly for a whole term#both inside and outside of academia. everything is interesting. there's not enough time to do it all.#but though there's this general constant (wonderful! enlightening!) intake there is no satisfying output#because I have no clarity!#I am a disordered brain. a postāearthquake library with the constant addition of new books and concepts and what have you#how do I sort. this.
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So About That Armorā¦
I regret to inform myself that I like it.
If you haven't seen it:


I'll give you time to take it in. This is a static, (hopefully) eternal text post, so take your time.
Ok so before I go further, you are allowed to have any and all opinions about the armor. Do not listen to me; I am a stranger on the internet who attaches himself to fictional murder cyborgs and treats them like kitty cats.
So first of all, it's weird. And I like it for that. Even if I found it to be the most infuriating piece of costume design ever, I still wouldn't be able to help but respect it for how strange it is.
When it comes to fanworks, adaptations, new installments in a franchise, or even just different takes on the same trope, I love it when creators take things in an unconventional or even seemingly unrelated direction that upon closer inspection still relates to the base or original concept. To get what I mean, think goth interpretations of Rarity or Cosmopoliturtle's PokƩmon redesigns. The TV series armor sits alongside these for me, because this was the thought process of the designer, Tommy Arnold:

First of all, it is so funny that The Company would just brand their armor and by extension their secunits, their combat/security products, like Louis Vuitton bags. Also, the logo of The Company strikes a nice balance between being simple enough to be easily reproducible and recognizable, but complex enough to read as a logo and not just a simple shape or pattern. Plus, The Company logo being mostly just concentric Cs, clever there.
But there's also some worldbuilding and character expression in this design.
The Corporation Rim is just capitalism but more. A company slathering everything and everyone they create and own in mountains of logos, even when it's potentially impractical, showcases just how extensive corporatism is in this setting. Additionally, this design could be something of a status marker. Secunits are high end additions and/or alternatives to other security measures. Much like how logos on purses, tennis shoes, and cars serve to tell observers, "I have the fancy, expensive version of [insert category of thing here] ergo I am a very wealthy/powerful/cool person", a secunit covered in corporate logos communicates the high status and access of the client(s).
Now what was one of the first things we learned about Murderbot in the books? It disabled its governor module, the thing preventing it from defying orders and having any level of freedom, but instead of doing what it could to leave The Company, Murderbot just stayed with it and kept doing its intended function. For over four years. What else do we learn in the first book? That it feels most comfortable in the armor because this prevents humans from seeing its face, from treating it more like a person or human rather than a tool or bot. This makes the armor being composed of the logo of the group that both created and hurt Murderbot very symbolic.
Murderbot has internalized the message that it is a dangerous weapon and not a person deserving of care to the point that, at least at the beginning of the series, it shies away from anything that insists that it deserves the same kindness that humans do. It's only ever been taught what the company built it to do, so it doesn't know what to do next once it's obtained some semblance of freedom for itself by disabling its mental shock collar and so keeps doing what it's always done, even though it very much would rather not be in such a situation. Even by the most recent book, System Collapse, Murderbot is still wrestling with the idea that it matters beyond how it can assist others. Murderbot finding comfort hiding behind the very thing that will not let you forget the company that enslaves it, is just juicy theming.
Also, the helmet looking so weird works well with how many humans don't know what secunits look like, with some not even thinking they have human-like faces. If you had no context for this image, you might very well assume this is a fully robot character or even a statue.
I have my own gripes and worries and hopes concerning the upcoming show, but I just couldnāt get this fun bit of character design analysis out of my head. Shouldnāt have watched so much TB Skyen.
#Tmbd#the murderbot diaries#Murderbot tv show#Murderbot#Murderbot diaries#my rambles#Beautiful beasties#mbtv
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Designing the Everlux for Flight Rising
In November of 2024Ā Flight RisingĀ released the Everlux dragon breed.
Designing a new dragon for Flight Rising is always an interesting challenge. The dragons need too be unique, fit into a square, and have enough surface area across both their bodies and wings for separate patterns (genes) to go into both. This breed originated from the Light Flight, and we wanted to explore a more alien dragon design. I came up with several concepts for the breed, but a heavy-set caterpillar inspired dragon is the direction we ended up going in.
Before proceeding with a final, I decided to do some studies from reference to learn a bit more about caterpillar anatomy and how their segmented, soft bodies worked. I did several studies from photographs of monarch butterfly caterpillars. I took the opportunity to draw in my sketchbook. Up until this past year, I have not been doing a lot of practice studies, and since picking up the habit, Iāve found that I observe more carefully and learn more by drawing on paper. With digital art, it is very easy to cut, move, and warp drawings after the fact. With paper, I was required pay attention to get the proportions as accurate as possible from the get-go, and I think it helped me to draw more mindfully.
With some practice under my belt, I proceeded to tighter drawings that fit the Flight Rising dragon style and template requirements.
And here are the final templates used for the game! Between the drawing and final stage, the FR art team provided helpful feedback on the hatchling. It was determined that the pulled up leg was busy and read poorly, so it was streamlined for the final. Getting an additional pair of eyes on something is always a good idea!
#flight rising#flightrising#everlux#dragon#dragon art#illustration#creature design#strange little creatures
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bonus:
(if atlus won't give akechi's mom a name i'll have to Do It Myself-)
Here's part 2 of the Akechi palace au with a bunch of character concepts :jazzhands: once again having a normal one lads
check out part 1 over here
some additional mechanics and a plot outline continued under the cut
The fifth and final area is the Imperial Box, this is where the Empress and the Treasure reside.
(Acceptance, Akechi must acknowledge that his old ambitions are long dead and buried so to speak. Thus, he must move forward, whatever that looks like for him personally now that all other legal avenues for redemption have been closed to him.)
The ātreasureā is with the Empress, a bound Hereward disguised as Mamakechiās cognition; Goro, the Emperor, is locked within his own palace and must leave the courtroom a free man on his own two feet. Akira anā Co have to wake him from his restful sleep and steal him from the palace while the Empress rampages.Ā
Boss fight includes continuously knocking Hereward down while fleeing the palace as it collapses area by area. Robin Hood and Loki help guide the Thieves out, having finally come together to share a stage.
Phase 1: The Empress will not rise from her throne, she reflects fire, physical, bless and curse attacks with a detached, disinterest as though the battle has nothing to do with her.
Phase 2: The Empress surges up in anger, using a hail of hellfire arrows on the party that must be ridden out.
Phase 3: She full heals the party and invites them to join in the palaceās festivities.
Phase 4: Her attacks start to grow lethargic and sloppy the closer the party gets to the palace entrance.
Phase 5: All of her shields are down, she can no longer reflect attacks, her facade shatters like a mirror, revealing the final palace ruler--Hereward.
Goro has a third awakening during this pursuit--Wilhelm Tell. A Swiss folk hero representing individual freedom and rebellion, a skilled hunter and father most known for shooting an apple from his sonās head at the behest of a tyrant who ultimately seeks retribution. A hero that kept to his convictions while taking control of his future, and protecting the person most important to him.Ā
(AKA Goro deep down craves a decent fraternal figure and alas, his own psyche and the sea of collective human consciousness decided to provide. And no, he is NOT talking about it Joker.)
Misc Palace rules/gen details:
Loki and Robin Hood hate each other which is honestly just Goroās internal self-loathing running wild, itās part of why they canāt exist on the same stage.
Hereward pulls Goro into the metaverse as a defense mechanism of sorts aka before Goro did something self-destructive deep down none of them wanted post-Shidoās trial.
Akechiās palace is hostile to every intruder aside from Akira, his rival, whom heāll always see as a threat but respects and trusts more than anyone else. This results in every enemy but his own shadows targeting the rest of the party. They also abide by the "Oracle is off limits" rule. Fights in general are easier with a smaller team as teammates in the back lineup will also take damage.
Jazz records instead of grief seeds, every time you get one the music in the area stops.
In the audience stands thereās a cognition of Wakaba in the VIP section, the party learns about Futaba being Goroās half-sibling. Goro sees himself in Futaba and deep down wishes he hadnāt burned all bridges on that front.
Initial Infiltration Team: Joker, Sumire, Morgana, Futaba. Haru and Makoto are at uni, Yusuke has a patron in Kyoto, Ann is overseas until a month into the palace and Ryuji is also at uni on a track scholarship until around the same time. The other thieves slowly fill in the ranks as the palace progresses, until we have a full house in the Hall of Severance.
First Layer Philosophy Puzzle Quotes:Ā
āHe who has a why to live for can bear almost any how.ā ā Friedrich Nietzsche
āGenuine tragedies in the world are not conflicts between right and wrong. They are conflicts between two rights.ā ā Hegel
āThe law is reason, free from passion.ā ā Aristotle
āThe first and greatest victory is to conquer yourself; to be conquered by yourself is of all things most shameful and vile.ā ā Plato
āI shall not be present at my trial.ā ā Leblanc
This is basically a loose fic outline, broad strokes, etc ;; ty to everyone who left replies and comments, they're all really sweet!
(had to get this au out or the mold would get me ya see :/)
#persona 5 royal#goro akechi#persona 5 protagonist#akira kurusu#akeshu#shuake#persona 5#fun convo i had with my buddy in the middle of this: 'why'd you make akechi's mom a baddie :///' 'because akechi's a baddie next question"#i like cognition akira he's a silly funny guy who insta-kills your party for vibes lol#long post#holy shit long post#(uuugh i just remembered i forgot to finish the wiliam tell persona proper--whatever its fine its fine its fine-)#striarts#akechi palace au
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What's your opinion on Chameleon? (I'm still confused how he learned to read and write when rainwings don't have literature from what I remember, but apparently his handwriting is also horrible.)
Rainwings do indeed not have literature, or a concept of currency or wealth for that matter. But keep in mind that Chameleon was banished from his tribe and spent a significant portion of his life outside the rain forest. Presumably he picked up a rudimentary understanding of how to read while having to live within these new environments.
We don't really know where he went, if I recall correctly--outside of the fact that he eventually wound up in the Sky Kingdom, presumably after Scarlet found him and made him her newest toy.
While thinking about this question, I settled on a personal headcanon that, after he was exiled from the Rain Kingdom, he ended up in the desert at first. Either at the Scorpion Den, or some outlier Sandwing town that went unmentioned in the books (I like to imagine the continent bigger, with a lot of smaller dragon settlements dotted around in every territory in addition to the big ones).
In the desert, unsure of how to subsist in this unfamiliar climate, Chameleon temporarily got roped into the service of some Sandwing merchant who owned the dragon equivalent of a pawn shop/curiosity store. There he was taught enough to be able to read labels and sort merchandise correctly, and figured out the very basics of literacy from that.
As a bonus, this kind of background would also put him into proximity of antique items which might explain how he eventually came into possession of Darkstalker's scroll. It also introduces him to the concept of personal wealth (Sandwings being a particularly mercantile and materialistic tribe) and informs his later obsession with acquiring it. And lastly it tells us how he turned villainous, as being forced to work in retail for long enough will turn even the most patient and virtuous of souls to the brink.
#wings of fire#dragon#wof#digital art#wof art#flawseer art#flawseer reply#flawseer story#wof chameleon#wof rainwing#wof sandwing#wof headcanon
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This was kind of my Stinky Child AU concept.
(It was first supposed to be part of the Kuja Empress comics so Croc was supposed to go by "Vanille" in this AU, the transition to Sir Crocodile happening much later. But I changed my mind at the last moment before posting the Ace meeting Luffy comic I guess X'D Who knows if I might change my mind again as this is a Work in Progress and some of you might have good input into it too. But this is where my mind's at now:)
Crocodile makes a sharp distinction between who he is as a pirate and who he thinks he has to be to safely raise Luffy. Nobody can know who he is. I imagine that actually raising Luffy was an unexpected decisions because he simply couldn't let him go so he and Dragon changed plans.
Crocodile tries hard to present in a certain way in Windmill Village, which is why we see him with make up and feminine clothes when he's interacting with Dadan and Makino. When it's just Dragon his clothing is more gender neutral (I guess?? he's definitely not wearing a push up bra, not that boobs in One Piece obey the laws of gravity) and he doesn't wear make up.
He'll gradually stop trying so hard when he learns that the people of Windmill Village don't judge if he doesn't conform to the idea he has about how a woman/ mother should present and they especially keep quiet about the most wanted man living among them. They'll do the same about a Warlord. He'll eventually be "baba" to the kids and not mom.
(Also, I don't know what Iva's involvement is. Since it's a gradual process, Iva might just help along a little bit? I don't know~
Additional note: I don't think Crocodile really struggles with dysphoria in this AU. That doesn't mean he's at ease with the concepts of womanhood and motherhood he attempts to live up to.)
Thoughts, input, objections, tomatoes?
(Edit: alright!! I gave him his fur coat back! *lol* Here's a little comic about why he might not have a coat!)
#One Piece#Sir Crocodile#genderbending#maybe#I don't know how to tag this#One Piece Fanart#Stinky Child AU
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